i'll be the negative nancy.

so i get this notification on facebook telling me that people from the high school that i went to is talking about arranging a 15 year reunion. this is great and all except for the facts that i'm a COMPLETE LOSER who DOESN'T have a ride to the event and the last time that i went to the 10 year reunion, my grandma MADE me go with this loser who drove my van (the van that erin HAD to sell because she wasn't making any money with my trust- so she was desperate for money to make it look like she was ACTUALLY doing her job.. ha, yeah right- traveling all the fuckin time IS NOT a job when one of your clients isn't TRULY happy living where she is when the client has ENOUGH MONEY TO LIVE WHERE EVER THE FUCK SHE WANTS). then his stupid ass tried to tell me that HE got forced to take ME to the reunion and some concerts that the dick went with me to.. right.. well, that was the end of asking him to with me to any other concerts- i just went all by my fuckin self. it was better anyway. besides, i don't really feel like showing people how much of a fuckin loser i am and what i DON'T have. i just don't see a point.
today, i had to have got asked by AT LEAST 3 people if i had a cold. people actually went outta their way and said, "do you have a cold or something?" to me.. well, my voice honestly started sounding hoarse and my throat started feeling sore after my friend left (i think it was last friday?.. i forget the last time that he was here exactly). whatever.. i'm not saying that he's the cause of this though because then nobody will come over to my place again or i'll be stuck with the guy who's sterile and likes to treat me like shit while getting horny over my sister and other fat girls.